Things have changed

mqdefaultWriting from my office, obsessively listening to a Bob Dylan song.

A worried man with a worried mind
No one in front of me and nothing behind
There’s a woman on my lap and she’s drinking champagne
Got white skin, got assassin’s eyes
I’m looking up into the sapphire tinted skies
I’m well dressed, waiting on the last train

I feel so related to this song. Worried all the time, thinking all the time. Going back home in the last train, in the end of the day, with no one in front of me, and trying to feel nothing behind. Getting the awkward feeling every year passing the Valentine Day as a single, from time to time looking forward to getting crazy as someone drunk from champagne.

This place ain’t doing me any good
I’m in the wrong town, I should be in Hollywood
Just for a second there I thought I saw something move
Gonna take dancing lessons do the jitterbug rag
Ain’t no shortcuts, gonna dress in drag
Only a fool in here would think he’s got anything to prove

Reaching home, feeling alone, sometimes out of place. Thinking of myself that I’m the most important man in the universe. Thinking of a lot of things I want to be, I want to learn, I want to have. Ending up thinking it is foolish to think life can be long enough to achieve all the dreams I’m dreaming.

I’ve been walking forty miles of bad road
If the bible is right, the world will explode
I’ve been trying to get as far away from myself as I can
Some things are too hot to touch
The human mind can only stand so much
You can’t win with a losing hand

I’ve been running and running for years, long years, many years. Feeling like a very old man, wise man, bored man. Trying to be crazy, trying to be by the book. Trying to be a human, trying to be me. Trying to win it all, trying not to lose anything. Forgetting that compromising can make you win, forgetting in every damn time.

I hurt easy, I just don’t show it
You can hurt someone and not even know it
The next sixty seconds could be like an eternity
Gonna get low down, gonna fly high
All the truth in the world adds up to one big lie
I’m in love with a woman who don’t even appeal to me

People say I’m kind, I believe I’m kind, I can be even too kind. I can be the complete opposite as well. I can shoot someone’s feelings to kill. I can screw their life. I can do that quickly, I can do that slowly. I can be a blessing, I can be a pain. I can say the truth, I can tell a lie. And yea, I came to realize that I once fell in love with a women who don’t even appeal to me.

People are crazy and times are strange
I’m locked in tight, I’m out of range
I used to care, but things have changed

2 Responses to Things have changed
  1. Gabriela Reply

    Nice introspective journey.

  2. Deborah Reply

    Sounds to me like you’re human, and we all go a little mad sometimes, especially when it comes to those we love and things we care about. We also have to be cruel to be kind in certain situations.

    You wouldn’t do what you do if your heart wasn’t kind.

    Here’s mine of the past two days:

    Sometimes you just have to feel bad to get it all out.

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