when i grew up a lil bit…entering school…the 1st school i entered in the non-egyptian nation i was in, was the perfect example of multi-cultural society…i was among different kind of ppl…which made me exposed (but not neccesarily caught in the idea of realization) to how different human beings can be…british, americans, indians, lebanese, syrians, pakis…including egyptians…and many more…another exposure was to globalization…and to dual standards…like talking in Ebglish in front of the teachers and the staff, while talking arabic when we (arabs) were with each other…which also taught me the sense of nationalism…(some might name it other expressions, but when i reanalyze it i cant name it other than…

Anger everywhere. Anger here and there. Always anger and there is no one to care. Anger in my opinion is one of the most primitive spontanuous way of expressing existed since day one. Angry sometimes can be right or wrong…But let's take some different angle…Many people discuss anger as something negative, something will affect your body, your mood, etc etc etc…while if you reanalyze it from a different angle…you can begin to consider how people usually talk about things from only one-side only… Some people get angry for wrong reasons, some for right ones, some are just violent by their own nature…you know…if you ever tried to enter a queue…

Alone… The purifying feeling of being alone… My parents never tried to understand my need to be alone from time to time, they just use the easy option of being scared and throw all the same-old-nagging about it is not right…it is bad…just like i'm still a child… I was never taught the sense of privacy…my parents always invaded my strong desire for privacy…under many excuses…parental watch, love, protecting…yea ok i'm important for you and all…but do you think that this way will make the character you want to see? to be a real man who is able to face this monsterous-kind of life which is getting harder every second……

Every once in a while i check through the old issues of the magazine, but recently i felt a new feeling…looking at some … mmm … many names which i met before… ice heat nonoshmarostillraafaty.simon and a lot more…and i wondered about that i'm still in contact with some of them…others r lost in the mazes of life…some r seen every now and then… wow…this magazine gave me a lot… thanks u TeenStuff…

Cairo International Model Arab League… what a wonderful experience…i was accepted as a member in the Egyptian Affairs Council. Then i attended the openning session, featuring Ibrahim Eissa…the session was in the American University in Cairo www.modelarableague.org

EAGLES THE lyrics

It wasn't really sad the way they said good-byeOr maybe it just hurt so bad she couldn't cryHe packed his things, walked out the door and drove awayAnd she became the girl from yesterdayHe took a plane across the sea to some foreign landShe stayed at home and tried so hard to understandHow someone who had been so close could be so far awayAnd she became the girl from yesterdayShe doesn't know what's rightShe doesn't know what's wrongShe only knows the pain that comes from waiting so longAnd she doesn't count the teardropsThat she's cried while he's awayBecause she knows deep in her heartThat he'll be back somedayThe light's on…

Since my settlement in Egypt and a lot of ppl think that i'm dull, many others think that i'm weird… they say i'm not outgoing at all in the beginning of knowing someone…i dunno if this is good or not…does this keeps awful characters from contacting? does this keep good characters from communicating…i just dont know… my teachers always said i'm an example for the perfect student…though i dont get that excellent marks, what is the use lol…i will lost contact with them anyway my character is complex, i always knew that…i react towards many ppl in an extreme way…extremely accepting, or extremely refusing…even if i found some good or…

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